Posted in Attitude, Design, Personal Life, Psychology

March: Momentum

It’s hard to maneuver a slow moving bicycle. 

For a while now, I’ve felt like I’ve been peddling very slowly and cautiously in my business. Along the way, trying to avoid any foreseeable pitfalls or getting myself in too deep.
Unfortunately, it’s impossible to gain any momentum at all that way.

At the beginning of this year, I made a goal to not say “I’m busy” or use “I’m busy” as an excuse not to do things, not to connect with people, and not to take on projects. …I’ve definitely still said, “I’m busy” but, less often and that’s progress.
And it’s been a bit of a red flag every time those words come out of my mouth that I need to step back and take an honest look at what I’m doing at that very moment. Not will be doing. Not thinking about doing  or hoping to do or, my favorite, maybe might be doing at some point.
I’ve been busier and more productive this year than ever.  And it’s been easier.

Back when I first started designing, I had a client who pushed me beyond what I thought I could do. I would get frustrated,  feel like my work wasn’t good enough, feel like I couldn’t do the work he was asking me for, and I wanted to give up. But instead, I compulsively said yes or “I’ve never done that before, but I’ll give it a shot!”
Several days ended in frustration, but that didn’t compare to the days that ended in – “Holy cow, how did I do that?” “I didn’t know I could do so much in one day!” or the even more rare “I’m really, really proud of what I did here.” 

That feeling of relief, pride, and success can’t be bought or manufactured artificially. It happens spontaneously without even hoping for it and that’s what so great about it. You can’t force it. It only happens when you’re completely focused on the job at hand, pour everything you have into it, and then let it go.

The stranger thing about this is, looking back on the work I did, it’s not that good! haha Which means I’m still pushing, growing, and developing as an artist. And that’s a good thing.

I’ve had quite a few clients that push me to do more, be better, and do things I don’t think I can do. A whole slurry of them in the beginning and I think that was a foreshadowing.

But, back to momentum.
I haven’t miraculously gotten more time, but I’ve become a TON better at managing my time and more important, my energy.

At the beginning of the year I posted a sort of resolution list. To be honest, I’ve looked at this list a handful of times since I wrote it, but I guess it’s been somewhere in the back of my mind because I’ve pretty much conquered one of the hardest things I’ve struggled with : setting and sticking to work hours.
I’ve been working diligently Monday – Friday 8am-4pm and have gotten my mind in a nice routine where, this is just what I do. Even the partial month hiatus in January didn’t mess things up too much because I have the momentum to keep things going.
Coincidentally enough, I have a ton more energy now, too.

Also on that list was pumping up my Patreon. I just posted my first coloring page and I feel like it’s time for Spiderluf to really come alive. Feel free to poke around there from time to time.
This is a bit tied to my Drawing goal which I’ve been working on and posting things on instagram.

Another thing that’s really been nagging me for the past month or so is the live feeds or videos of some type. I posted a video on Youtube, let it sit for about a day and promptly took it down because it was just embarrassing. 😃 For all those people that say, “Set a date to accomplish your goals!”
Well, sometimes that works. This time it Very much did Not work.
But it’s nagging at me so I have a feeling the time will be soon for that.

And with all this momentum, the time may be sooner than I think. 

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Hello! Thanks for visiting my wordpress site. Here you'll read about my life as a graphic designer/photographer/Step-Mom/ENFP/quirkster. Since I work from home, my worklife and homelife are intertwined. A lot of my posts will be about work/life integration. I'll share insights about project management, balancing domestic, and a lot about moving forward when working with the most impatient client ever in the world (myself).

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